Kind of Lost

I like to convince myself that I’m lost

I had to restrucutre everything because it was only me

I had a lot of things going on but no one to give me real support

Half-assed “do your best” was not enough then

And that shit is not enough now

I’m glad I don’t have a connection with you anymore

I found motivation to move forward when you kept me in place

Like I told you before, you’re a loser

I wanted to win

I put myself on the path to winning

And I did that because I learned what it was like to experience life through the eyes of someone who can’t see

And you couldn’t see because you wanted to have slanted eyes

I wanted to see things burn, and to some degree still do

But things burning weren’t bad things like you thought

The things I knew burned, and from those ashes better things were made

Going forward isn’t a bad thing

I’m in a better place

And I made the goal to be in a better place because I wanted to be there

I stopped giving a fuck about what people who didn’t look out for me thought and made something of myself

I can try to convince myself that I’m lost but in reality I’m choosing where to go next